Grace under Pressure

Grace, faith, Jesus

I cried, ugly cried to God. Feeling utter despair, extreme loneliness, pressure from demands of work and life, I cried ” I can’t do this, I’m crushing, I am melting down. I really need your help Jesus!!!”

Just when I thought my grace is under pressure, that i can’t hold it in and suck it up any longer…

He showed up. He reminded me that I am accepted and beloved, that I am not alone, He cares about me. His presence so intense. His peace so aggressive it displaces the tornado in my mind. Though my eyes can’t see him, my heart can.

Finally I heared Him say ” My grace is sufficient for you. This is our secret code. These were the words I clung onto through the various storms of my life. Overwhelmed by the memories of how He walked with me through previous valleys of shadow of death; tears flowed. This time, the tears felt like a dam released, letting go.

In a moment of absolute abandonment, I can see clearly immediately. The strongholds of anxiety, fear, loneliness, despair came crushing down and melting away like ice cream on a hot summer day.

Total surrender in trust: Allowing myself to free fall into the unknown, enveloped by His everlasting arms of love.

I can never fully grasp the depth of His love for me or fathom the magnitude of His grace. Time and again I am reminded that His grace is sufficient for me and that is all I need.

but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.

2 CORINTHIANS 12:9 AMP

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The Divine Exchange 

 

As I ponder this week on the coming Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday. I realised that Jesus died not only to give us a ‘ticket’ to heaven. There is so much depth to His work on the cross.

 

Whatever I see Jesus on the cross, I’m given the exact opposite. Jesus was naked, so I can be covered with His glory and honour.

When I feel unsafe, fearful and vulnerable, I recall:

Jesus was fully vulnerable to the soldier’s torture, so I can be fully protected and surounded by angels.

When I feel unwell, when my body is failing me, I recall:

Jesus body was scared and fully broken, so my body can be fully healed and restored.

When I feel empty and disappointed by life, I recall:

Jesus died most extremely excruciatingly (fully depleted of life), so I can have life most abundantly. 

He died for all sinners. Because He lives, there is hope for everyone. He conquered all and He is now seated at the right hand of God.
I can never ever fully share the depth, the intensity, the height nor the magnitude of Jesus’ work on the cross … : How far, how wide, how deep is God’s love, mercy and grace.

 

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 3:16

Feeling Intimidated?

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JOSHUA 1:9 AMP
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified or dismayed (intimidated), for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Fear is a powerful emotion.
Fear drives us to do somethings, fear paralyzes us not to do anything.
Sometimes, fear can be good,when it keeps us safe from potentially hazardous environment, in the sense of fear of fire, deep waters.
Fear is a feeling that comes upon some of us as a gripping feeling in the heart. Sometimes, it feels like someone or something is gripping your heart so tightly that you cannot breathe.
What are you fearful of today? What’s intimidating you? Is it the economic situation? violence in the world, job insecurity, health issues?  To be honest, I’m a person with a lot of fear.  When I am well, any slight physical symptom will send chills down my spine, thinking whether it’s a relapse. When I was on my sickbed, at my worst, I was afraid of sleeping as I was terrified that I would not wake up again. When I am working, I fear my job will be replaced by someone younger and cheaper to hire. When I was out of job, I fear I cannot find a job in the gloomy economic circumstances.  When I come home alone, I fear that this will be the case for the rest of my life and that I’ll die alone as a single old lady and nobody would know until weeks later.
What do you do when you feel fearful? Some of us hide, others run away from their fear. Yet others live in denial and try to forget or dismiss the fears. Whatever the measures, the result of fear does stop people from living life to the fullest.
Today, remember that no matter what, God is with you. No sickness, economic downturn, violence and unrest can separate us from the Love of God. With the Almighty God on our side, what should we be afraid of or why should we feel intimidated? No matter where we tread, He is with us wherever we go. That is His promise to us!
JOSHUA 1:9 AMP
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified or dismayed (intimidated), for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Seeking the Ultimate Valentine

 

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Valentine’s Day. The day Love is celebrated throughout the world. Sometimes, I wonder and secretly think if this day has been conspired by cards and chocolate manufacturers, florists, or jewelry retailers.

If you’re, somewhat like me, not really looking forward to Valentine’s Day, because you are single and not found your significant one – you are not alone. I admit that I’ve been down that road, throwing a pity party, envying other couples holding hands and ladies walking with flowers in their hands. Amidst all these celebration of love, it’s easy for the single girl to slip into self-pity and wonder if she’ll ever find / be found by her Prince charming, if she’ll ever love again/ at all, or is she destined to be alone for the rest of her life.

But what if in the flurry of hearts, candy boxes and flowers; one great Valentine, the ultimate origin of every true, selfless love, has come, died for you, risen back to life, and is still wooing your heart everyday!
No Heart ever beat with or will ever carry more love than His. No one ever proved love as He did: Love even to the point of suffering an excruciating death on the cross. Such amazing grace and wonderous love.

He has loved us from the beginning, He will continue to love us till the end.

He loved us even when we cannot love ourselves and He is constantly wooing our hearts.

He does not stop loving us even when we forsake Him, no matter how long we have been away from Him.

His love will never grow cold, faint, or distant. His love is everlasting, infinite and eternal.

 

 

This Valentine’s Day, let’s take our focus off the age-old adage of romance, love, meeting Prince charming, erase all expectations or disappointment this day tends to bring, and take time to recognise what true love is.

Let’s fix our gaze on the Author of Love, Himself. What He’s been trying to show you everyday, how He’s provided and cared for you, how cherished you are in His sight.  So go boldly into Valentine’s Day this year, my sisters, and celebrate it because of how loved and cherished you are by Jesus – the only man who will ever lay down His life for you.

 

 

Reflections of 2017

Romans 8:28

Few minutes more to 2018 and it’s all beginning to make sense.

2017 was a year I suffered a minor health relapse. One week I was ok and the next weekend, I found myself lying on my bed. At times of physical discomfort and pain, the pangs of loneliness hit hardest. There were times when I would just sob in bed and wondered if God has left me too. It came to a point where I cried to God saying I don’t know how much longer I can hold on and telling Him I don’t have mountain moving faith. Then He showed up and revealed to me that it is not about how faithful I am but how Faithful and Good He is. Then I began seeing afresh again… seeing myself healed and even if I don’t see it now, I believe I have been healed.

2017 started with a wedding and ended with a baby shower. Celebrating other people’s blessings while being single and feeling that the whole world has left you behind sucks. To be honest… there were times when I just regretted showing up for someone’s party. Yet by the end of the year, I realised I was finally able to be happy with another person’s blessing.

 Many times in fear, loneliness and despair;  I’ve wondered and asked God where He is, if He has forgotten about me, what’s His take in my current situation (be it job, health or life at large).
I cannot fully describe how my life has been unfolding the past few years. Though it’s far from perfect, one thing I know: God is Good and He loves me.  Thank you Jesus. I’ve had a wonderful year because You are with me.
Few minutes more to 2018 and it’s all beginning to make sense.
Trusting God in times of ill health and fear. Being happy where I am in Life. Celebrating with others while I’m still single and childless. Holding my desires with a loose hand – Letting go and letting Him take control.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Romans 8:28 NLT