The Divine Exchange 


As I ponder this week on the coming Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday. I realised that Jesus died not only to give us a ‘ticket’ to heaven. There is so much depth to His work on the cross.


Whatever I see Jesus on the cross, I’m given the exact opposite. Jesus was naked, so I can be covered with His glory and honour.

When I feel unsafe, fearful and vulnerable, I recall:

Jesus was fully vulnerable to the soldier’s torture, so I can be fully protected and surounded by angels.

When I feel unwell, when my body is failing me, I recall:

Jesus body was scared and fully broken, so my body can be fully healed and restored.

When I feel empty and disappointed by life, I recall:

Jesus died most extremely excruciatingly (fully depleted of life), so I can have life most abundantly. 

He died for all sinners. Because He lives, there is hope for everyone. He conquered all and He is now seated at the right hand of God.
I can never ever fully share the depth, the intensity, the height nor the magnitude of Jesus’ work on the cross … : How far, how wide, how deep is God’s love, mercy and grace.


For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 3:16


Seeking the Ultimate Valentine



Valentine’s Day. The day Love is celebrated throughout the world. Sometimes, I wonder and secretly think if this day has been conspired by cards and chocolate manufacturers, florists, or jewelry retailers.

If you’re, somewhat like me, not really looking forward to Valentine’s Day, because you are single and not found your significant one – you are not alone. I admit that I’ve been down that road, throwing a pity party, envying other couples holding hands and ladies walking with flowers in their hands. Amidst all these celebration of love, it’s easy for the single girl to slip into self-pity and wonder if she’ll ever find / be found by her Prince charming, if she’ll ever love again/ at all, or is she destined to be alone for the rest of her life.

But what if in the flurry of hearts, candy boxes and flowers; one great Valentine, the ultimate origin of every true, selfless love, has come, died for you, risen back to life, and is still wooing your heart everyday!
No Heart ever beat with or will ever carry more love than His. No one ever proved love as He did: Love even to the point of suffering an excruciating death on the cross. Such amazing grace and wonderous love.

He has loved us from the beginning, He will continue to love us till the end.

He loved us even when we cannot love ourselves and He is constantly wooing our hearts.

He does not stop loving us even when we forsake Him, no matter how long we have been away from Him.

His love will never grow cold, faint, or distant. His love is everlasting, infinite and eternal.



This Valentine’s Day, let’s take our focus off the age-old adage of romance, love, meeting Prince charming, erase all expectations or disappointment this day tends to bring, and take time to recognise what true love is.

Let’s fix our gaze on the Author of Love, Himself. What He’s been trying to show you everyday, how He’s provided and cared for you, how cherished you are in His sight.  So go boldly into Valentine’s Day this year, my sisters, and celebrate it because of how loved and cherished you are by Jesus – the only man who will ever lay down His life for you.



Reflections of 2017

Romans 8:28

Few minutes more to 2018 and it’s all beginning to make sense.

2017 was a year I suffered a minor health relapse. One week I was ok and the next weekend, I found myself lying on my bed. At times of physical discomfort and pain, the pangs of loneliness hit hardest. There were times when I would just sob in bed and wondered if God has left me too. It came to a point where I cried to God saying I don’t know how much longer I can hold on and telling Him I don’t have mountain moving faith. Then He showed up and revealed to me that it is not about how faithful I am but how Faithful and Good He is. Then I began seeing afresh again… seeing myself healed and even if I don’t see it now, I believe I have been healed.

2017 started with a wedding and ended with a baby shower. Celebrating other people’s blessings while being single and feeling that the whole world has left you behind sucks. To be honest… there were times when I just regretted showing up for someone’s party. Yet by the end of the year, I realised I was finally able to be happy with another person’s blessing.

 Many times in fear, loneliness and despair;  I’ve wondered and asked God where He is, if He has forgotten about me, what’s His take in my current situation (be it job, health or life at large).
I cannot fully describe how my life has been unfolding the past few years. Though it’s far from perfect, one thing I know: God is Good and He loves me.  Thank you Jesus. I’ve had a wonderful year because You are with me.
Few minutes more to 2018 and it’s all beginning to make sense.
Trusting God in times of ill health and fear. Being happy where I am in Life. Celebrating with others while I’m still single and childless. Holding my desires with a loose hand – Letting go and letting Him take control.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Romans 8:28 NLT


A Stranger’s Prayer

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Would you pray for a total stranger, without being asked to?

Here’s how it happened, for me.

This week, I received an email reply from the secretary of an organisation I was making some enquiries with. I had written in a couple of weeks ago, as the matter was not urgent, I didn’t bother to call up to check. So this email reply is in fact three weeks late.

When I read the first line of the email, something stirred in my heart. It goes ” I’m sorry for the delayed reply as my son was hospitalised.” At that split second, I felt a nudge, but I tried to shove the nudge away with a “self-conversation”, that goes like that:

” Are you sure you want me to do this?… What should I say? Yes I understand her child is sick but how would I know she’s open to it?  Who knows her son may have recovered by now so doing this will be redundant right? .. What if she rejects me out right? …”

After a few minutes which seemed like eternity, I resolved:

” All right, if you really want  me to do this, you need to give me the words. And if this is really it, let her be the first person to pick up the phone when I call her.”

After this, I picked up my phone and dialed the secretary who sent me the email. The line was connected, a sweet sounding lady answered the phone.

” Hello, may I speak to Jenny please?” I asked

“Yes I am” the lady on the other end replied.

“Oh, Hi Jenny. Thank you for your reply. hmm.. actually I’m calling you not to make further enquiries …  hmm … I just feel I need to call you when I saw your email.  You don’t have to tell me what happened to your son if you’re not comfortable to but I’d like to pray for your son right now over the phone. It’ll take just a minute, all you need to do is to stay on the line with me and say Amen together with me.”

“Ok” she replied.

So I said a short prayer on the phone with her.  There was a short silence after we said ‘Amen’. Then her voice came on again:

“Wow, that means alot to me. Thank you.”

“Well, that’s the purpose of my call today. You have a good day.”

“You too” she replied.

And so we hung up. Here I am, trapped at home (feeling rather useless) due to recuperation needed for my own health issues. Yet I felt joyful that even in the midst of my own health issues, God can use me to pray for someone else’s healing – and more so – a total stranger.

I am constantly amazed by my awesome Heavenly Father.


Isaiah 55:8

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.






Recovery: 10 Years Later


Sometimes I am really blown away by people.

In a good way.

Not in a Kendall Jenner, Pepsi/Fyre Festival fiasco sort of way…

But in a, wow, how did I get so lucky, kind of way.

My best friend said the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me the other night.

We were sitting at a bar, and she proceeded to floor me with kindness.

And honestly, I’d muuuuch rather be self-deprecating than self-affirming, but I’ve decided to share this with you to show the full circle that God has brought me on.

She looked at me and said, “I’ve finally figured you out.”

And I asked her, “What do you mean?”

She said, “Caralyn, I’ve been your best friend since we were seven, and I’ve seen people just be drawn to you. Attracted to you. And I could never pinpoint what that “it factor” was. But…

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