Grace under Pressure

Grace, faith, Jesus

I cried, ugly cried to God. Feeling utter despair, extreme loneliness, pressure from demands of work and life, I cried ” I can’t do this, I’m crushing, I am melting down. I really need your help Jesus!!!”

Just when I thought my grace is under pressure, that i can’t hold it in and suck it up any longer…

He showed up. He reminded me that I am accepted and beloved, that I am not alone, He cares about me. His presence so intense. His peace so aggressive it displaces the tornado in my mind. Though my eyes can’t see him, my heart can.

Finally I heared Him say ” My grace is sufficient for you. This is our secret code. These were the words I clung onto through the various storms of my life. Overwhelmed by the memories of how He walked with me through previous valleys of shadow of death; tears flowed. This time, the tears felt like a dam released, letting go.

In a moment of absolute abandonment, I can see clearly immediately. The strongholds of anxiety, fear, loneliness, despair came crushing down and melting away like ice cream on a hot summer day.

Total surrender in trust: Allowing myself to free fall into the unknown, enveloped by His everlasting arms of love.

I can never fully grasp the depth of His love for me or fathom the magnitude of His grace. Time and again I am reminded that His grace is sufficient for me and that is all I need.

but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.

2 CORINTHIANS 12:9 AMP

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The Divine Exchange 

 

As I ponder this week on the coming Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday. I realised that Jesus died not only to give us a ‘ticket’ to heaven. There is so much depth to His work on the cross.

 

Whatever I see Jesus on the cross, I’m given the exact opposite. Jesus was naked, so I can be covered with His glory and honour.

When I feel unsafe, fearful and vulnerable, I recall:

Jesus was fully vulnerable to the soldier’s torture, so I can be fully protected and surounded by angels.

When I feel unwell, when my body is failing me, I recall:

Jesus body was scared and fully broken, so my body can be fully healed and restored.

When I feel empty and disappointed by life, I recall:

Jesus died most extremely excruciatingly (fully depleted of life), so I can have life most abundantly. 

He died for all sinners. Because He lives, there is hope for everyone. He conquered all and He is now seated at the right hand of God.
I can never ever fully share the depth, the intensity, the height nor the magnitude of Jesus’ work on the cross … : How far, how wide, how deep is God’s love, mercy and grace.

 

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 3:16

Feeling Intimidated?

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JOSHUA 1:9 AMP
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified or dismayed (intimidated), for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Fear is a powerful emotion.
Fear drives us to do somethings, fear paralyzes us not to do anything.
Sometimes, fear can be good,when it keeps us safe from potentially hazardous environment, in the sense of fear of fire, deep waters.
Fear is a feeling that comes upon some of us as a gripping feeling in the heart. Sometimes, it feels like someone or something is gripping your heart so tightly that you cannot breathe.
What are you fearful of today? What’s intimidating you? Is it the economic situation? violence in the world, job insecurity, health issues?  To be honest, I’m a person with a lot of fear.  When I am well, any slight physical symptom will send chills down my spine, thinking whether it’s a relapse. When I was on my sickbed, at my worst, I was afraid of sleeping as I was terrified that I would not wake up again. When I am working, I fear my job will be replaced by someone younger and cheaper to hire. When I was out of job, I fear I cannot find a job in the gloomy economic circumstances.  When I come home alone, I fear that this will be the case for the rest of my life and that I’ll die alone as a single old lady and nobody would know until weeks later.
What do you do when you feel fearful? Some of us hide, others run away from their fear. Yet others live in denial and try to forget or dismiss the fears. Whatever the measures, the result of fear does stop people from living life to the fullest.
Today, remember that no matter what, God is with you. No sickness, economic downturn, violence and unrest can separate us from the Love of God. With the Almighty God on our side, what should we be afraid of or why should we feel intimidated? No matter where we tread, He is with us wherever we go. That is His promise to us!
JOSHUA 1:9 AMP
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified or dismayed (intimidated), for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Seeking the Ultimate Valentine

 

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Valentine’s Day. The day Love is celebrated throughout the world. Sometimes, I wonder and secretly think if this day has been conspired by cards and chocolate manufacturers, florists, or jewelry retailers.

If you’re, somewhat like me, not really looking forward to Valentine’s Day, because you are single and not found your significant one – you are not alone. I admit that I’ve been down that road, throwing a pity party, envying other couples holding hands and ladies walking with flowers in their hands. Amidst all these celebration of love, it’s easy for the single girl to slip into self-pity and wonder if she’ll ever find / be found by her Prince charming, if she’ll ever love again/ at all, or is she destined to be alone for the rest of her life.

But what if in the flurry of hearts, candy boxes and flowers; one great Valentine, the ultimate origin of every true, selfless love, has come, died for you, risen back to life, and is still wooing your heart everyday!
No Heart ever beat with or will ever carry more love than His. No one ever proved love as He did: Love even to the point of suffering an excruciating death on the cross. Such amazing grace and wonderous love.

He has loved us from the beginning, He will continue to love us till the end.

He loved us even when we cannot love ourselves and He is constantly wooing our hearts.

He does not stop loving us even when we forsake Him, no matter how long we have been away from Him.

His love will never grow cold, faint, or distant. His love is everlasting, infinite and eternal.

 

 

This Valentine’s Day, let’s take our focus off the age-old adage of romance, love, meeting Prince charming, erase all expectations or disappointment this day tends to bring, and take time to recognise what true love is.

Let’s fix our gaze on the Author of Love, Himself. What He’s been trying to show you everyday, how He’s provided and cared for you, how cherished you are in His sight.  So go boldly into Valentine’s Day this year, my sisters, and celebrate it because of how loved and cherished you are by Jesus – the only man who will ever lay down His life for you.

 

 

Healing & Restoration

I am the Lord that heals you Exodus 15: 26

Recently I suffered a health relapse, that left me lying on my bed, gasping for breath. On one of the worst days, I found myself rolling on my apartment kitchen floor in pain, after about 2 hours of agony, I threw up my lunch (verbatim). I know it’s kind of gross but that’s a fact, ignore your stomach and it’ll get back at you – Big time!  By this time, I knew I had no choice but to take a break from Corporate life as the marketing calendar and events were simply piled up one against another back to back and we were working with minimal manpower. Risking my health for work is not an option I’d like to entertain.

On hindsight, I should have seen it coming: Working late everyday, working weekend events; I was practically only eating one meal a day. Skipping breakfast was norm because I would be just so exhausted from work that getting out of bed every morning was a challenge. Skipping dinner was norm as I had to work late with tonnes of work and tight deadlines – often I could hardly breathe. And even if I ate chances are they’re junk food, from convenience stores, canned food and microwave-food, (which is completely not nourishing my body, I know). I ignored the initial fatigue warning symptoms, ignored the hunger pangs and thought naively that they will go away but they didn’t. In  fact, before long, they came back in full force which led me to a complete physical breakdown.

So here I am, resting at home, taking lots of bed rest and and for once I found the time to go into God’s word (which is a luxury in the hectic daily life of a corporate worker). I realised how much I had ‘starved’ myself, not only physically but also spiritually.

And it really hit me hard (once again) that Heal is Wealth, quite literally – We need health to work for an income. At the same time, it dawned on me that Healing is important to God because without health one cannot be effective in any work.

And as I spend time in the word of God again, I am reminded of how Good God is.   Many a times we gloss thru the gospels of the accounts of Jesus as if they’re bible stories. The fact is that Jesus never rejected anyone who came to Him for healing when He was on earth. Thus if we believe Jesus is the SAME yesterday, today and forever; He is still in the business of Healing!  Though my mind acknowledge, my heart sometimes still harbor a sliver of doubt. Yet, without a doubt it is God’s heart to heal. It is not because of my merits, it is because He is good God. It is due to His Goodness not my goodness. And I’m sure, with every healing, there’s much more restoration coming from my Abba Father.

More than that, Jesus is in the business of holistic healing before anyone else. The whole current craze about looking at health holistically and all the psychological studies on how one’s emotions affect one’s physical health. Now I realized, actually Jesus practised it all.  He not only healed people of their physical ailments, He also healed their emotions. He encouraged and showed them love and acceptance.

So as I take time to recuperate, catch up on God’s word and journaling my journey (no pun intended), I hope to share my little revelations and benefit whoever lands up on this webpage in the world wide web. Meanwhile, I’m also taking time to learn about eating nutritiously and looking for good juicing resources for gastritis, if you know of any, d0 let me know.

Do you have a health and healing story to share too? Don’t be shy to drop a line below.

 

 

I am the Lord that heals you

Exodus 15: 26