Grace under Pressure

Grace, faith, Jesus

I cried, ugly cried to God. Feeling utter despair, extreme loneliness, pressure from demands of work and life, I cried ” I can’t do this, I’m crushing, I am melting down. I really need your help Jesus!!!”

Just when I thought my grace is under pressure, that i can’t hold it in and suck it up any longer…

He showed up. He reminded me that I am accepted and beloved, that I am not alone, He cares about me. His presence so intense. His peace so aggressive it displaces the tornado in my mind. Though my eyes can’t see him, my heart can.

Finally I heared Him say ” My grace is sufficient for you. This is our secret code. These were the words I clung onto through the various storms of my life. Overwhelmed by the memories of how He walked with me through previous valleys of shadow of death; tears flowed. This time, the tears felt like a dam released, letting go.

In a moment of absolute abandonment, I can see clearly immediately. The strongholds of anxiety, fear, loneliness, despair came crushing down and melting away like ice cream on a hot summer day.

Total surrender in trust: Allowing myself to free fall into the unknown, enveloped by His everlasting arms of love.

I can never fully grasp the depth of His love for me or fathom the magnitude of His grace. Time and again I am reminded that His grace is sufficient for me and that is all I need.

but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.

2 CORINTHIANS 12:9 AMP

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The Divine Exchange 

 

As I ponder this week on the coming Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday. I realised that Jesus died not only to give us a ‘ticket’ to heaven. There is so much depth to His work on the cross.

 

Whatever I see Jesus on the cross, I’m given the exact opposite. Jesus was naked, so I can be covered with His glory and honour.

When I feel unsafe, fearful and vulnerable, I recall:

Jesus was fully vulnerable to the soldier’s torture, so I can be fully protected and surounded by angels.

When I feel unwell, when my body is failing me, I recall:

Jesus body was scared and fully broken, so my body can be fully healed and restored.

When I feel empty and disappointed by life, I recall:

Jesus died most extremely excruciatingly (fully depleted of life), so I can have life most abundantly. 

He died for all sinners. Because He lives, there is hope for everyone. He conquered all and He is now seated at the right hand of God.
I can never ever fully share the depth, the intensity, the height nor the magnitude of Jesus’ work on the cross … : How far, how wide, how deep is God’s love, mercy and grace.

 

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 3:16

Seeking the Ultimate Valentine

 

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Valentine’s Day. The day Love is celebrated throughout the world. Sometimes, I wonder and secretly think if this day has been conspired by cards and chocolate manufacturers, florists, or jewelry retailers.

If you’re, somewhat like me, not really looking forward to Valentine’s Day, because you are single and not found your significant one – you are not alone. I admit that I’ve been down that road, throwing a pity party, envying other couples holding hands and ladies walking with flowers in their hands. Amidst all these celebration of love, it’s easy for the single girl to slip into self-pity and wonder if she’ll ever find / be found by her Prince charming, if she’ll ever love again/ at all, or is she destined to be alone for the rest of her life.

But what if in the flurry of hearts, candy boxes and flowers; one great Valentine, the ultimate origin of every true, selfless love, has come, died for you, risen back to life, and is still wooing your heart everyday!
No Heart ever beat with or will ever carry more love than His. No one ever proved love as He did: Love even to the point of suffering an excruciating death on the cross. Such amazing grace and wonderous love.

He has loved us from the beginning, He will continue to love us till the end.

He loved us even when we cannot love ourselves and He is constantly wooing our hearts.

He does not stop loving us even when we forsake Him, no matter how long we have been away from Him.

His love will never grow cold, faint, or distant. His love is everlasting, infinite and eternal.

 

 

This Valentine’s Day, let’s take our focus off the age-old adage of romance, love, meeting Prince charming, erase all expectations or disappointment this day tends to bring, and take time to recognise what true love is.

Let’s fix our gaze on the Author of Love, Himself. What He’s been trying to show you everyday, how He’s provided and cared for you, how cherished you are in His sight.  So go boldly into Valentine’s Day this year, my sisters, and celebrate it because of how loved and cherished you are by Jesus – the only man who will ever lay down His life for you.

 

 

Trust Me

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“Trust Me, I will make all things beautiful in My time.

Trust Me, I will catch you when you jump.

Trust me, I will never let go of My hand.

Trust Me, I have a good plan for you.”

I stand in awe, as these words echoed in my mind as He beckons me with an outstretched hand, onto a bright path.

It was an invitation to walk on the path with Him. “Yes, I am following You, take me where you want to lead me!”

How can I ever fathom the Love of my beautiful Saviour – even if it takes eternity. I want to live like this every day, forever in Love with Him.

 

Ecclesiastes 3:11 –  He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Jeremiah 29:11 –  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Divine Appointment

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It was a normal summer Saturday morning.  Ok, perhaps not so normal perhaps, as I had to drag myself out of bed and travel halfway across the other side of town to meet a prospective client.

It was one of those days in which I wished I should have gotten ready faster and left the house earlier.  Which is why I agreed immediately when my dear sister (although we’ve much sibling rivalry at times) happily volunteered to give me a lift as she was heading out.  She dropped me halfway to my client’s place so I could take a bus to my destination.   To cut the story short, I was well on my way, arrived at the bus stop and after a few minutes the bus came.

Upon boarding the bus, I immediately noticed an empty seat beside an old lady at the front.  I smiled to her, she smiled back and I plonked myself down right beside her.  She’s dressed very prettily in a dress, silver white hair elegant combed back.  The wrinkles on her face and arm tells me that she’s probably around the ripe old age of 90 (I think).

Before I realised how rude I was to be staring at her, she started talking to me.  She introduced herself as Florence (First thing I thought of was Florence Nightingale and wondered if she was ever a nurse). And of course I told her my name.  Then we carried on with our mini conversation as below :

Old Lady :  Oh isn’t it a lovely sunny day?

Me: Well, yes it’s indeed a sunny day (hmm..  so much so for weather talk, it sure is sunny but I’m not sure about the lovely part)

Old Lady: Are you in a hurry Macy?

Me:  Yes, in fact, I’m rushing for an appointment.

Old Lady:  I am going to the Church just round the next corner, I thought you might be interested to come with me.  But, well, since you’re in a hurry today, I want you to have this ( speaking which  she reached into her handbag and wanted to pass me a Christian flyer).

Me: (I said smiling),  I’m a believer too.

Old Lady: Oh, really ! Praise the Lord (she’s smiling so widely with a sparkle in her eyes).  You know God is Good. In life there’ll be ups and

downs, sometimes you may find yourself in a muddy pit.  Don’t be discouraged, God will pull you out of the pit.

 

At this point, my spirit immediately felt comforted, yet I was close to tears.

Flashback to the night before, I really don’t feel like coming to this part of town but had no choice as the appointment had been fixed (and afterall, the client always wins).  This was a place with many memories of a past relationship. I remembered even praying to God before bed the night before to grant me strength and peace in my heart.

 

The next thing I knew, the old Lady spoke again

Old Lady: Macy, can we pray for a while?

I nodded my head.

Old Lady: Dear Father, thank you for Macy and I pray that you’ll keep her and bless her. Amen.

 

After the prayer, she said goodbye (still with that sparkle in her eyes) and got down the bus.

And although this old granny is a complete stranger, it was one of the most wonderfully short and sweet prayer I’ve ever had someone said with me.  The morning started out a little grey for me but meeting the old lady just lifted my spirits up.  Though we only spoke for a while, and I don’t even know her, I felt so divine!  Amazingly, I felt God’s presence with me. It’s such a peaceful and comforting feeling that I can’t explain.

Moreover, the old lady is so full of joy and life at her age!!  That spirit and sparkle in her eyes is something that makes me really say ‘Wow’ , almost like being star struck (or even better).  She’s just so inspiring.

I believe she must have been sent by God.  How wonderous ! How marvelous !

Very often, we ask God to speak to us, give us visions, reveal to us in dreams.  But somehow, I think today God chose to speak to me through a lovely old granny.

 

I will always treasure this wonderful memory in my heart.  Perhaps, one day when I’m that old, God will still use me to encourage some younger woman out there feeling down and out and lonely, to remind her that she’s never alone, that her beloved Father in heaven is watching over her with Love.

 

Romans 8:39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.