Healing & Restoration

I am the Lord that heals you Exodus 15: 26

Recently I suffered a health relapse, that left me lying on my bed, gasping for breath. On one of the worst days, I found myself rolling on my apartment kitchen floor in pain, after about 2 hours of agony, I threw up my lunch (verbatim). I know it’s kind of gross but that’s a fact, ignore your stomach and it’ll get back at you – Big time!  By this time, I knew I had no choice but to take a break from Corporate life as the marketing calendar and events were simply piled up one against another back to back and we were working with minimal manpower. Risking my health for work is not an option I’d like to entertain.

On hindsight, I should have seen it coming: Working late everyday, working weekend events; I was practically only eating one meal a day. Skipping breakfast was norm because I would be just so exhausted from work that getting out of bed every morning was a challenge. Skipping dinner was norm as I had to work late with tonnes of work and tight deadlines – often I could hardly breathe. And even if I ate chances are they’re junk food, from convenience stores, canned food and microwave-food, (which is completely not nourishing my body, I know). I ignored the initial fatigue warning symptoms, ignored the hunger pangs and thought naively that they will go away but they didn’t. In  fact, before long, they came back in full force which led me to a complete physical breakdown.

So here I am, resting at home, taking lots of bed rest and and for once I found the time to go into God’s word (which is a luxury in the hectic daily life of a corporate worker). I realised how much I had ‘starved’ myself, not only physically but also spiritually.

And it really hit me hard (once again) that Heal is Wealth, quite literally – We need health to work for an income. At the same time, it dawned on me that Healing is important to God because without health one cannot be effective in any work.

And as I spend time in the word of God again, I am reminded of how Good God is.   Many a times we gloss thru the gospels of the accounts of Jesus as if they’re bible stories. The fact is that Jesus never rejected anyone who came to Him for healing when He was on earth. Thus if we believe Jesus is the SAME yesterday, today and forever; He is still in the business of Healing!  Though my mind acknowledge, my heart sometimes still harbor a sliver of doubt. Yet, without a doubt it is God’s heart to heal. It is not because of my merits, it is because He is good God. It is due to His Goodness not my goodness. And I’m sure, with every healing, there’s much more restoration coming from my Abba Father.

More than that, Jesus is in the business of holistic healing before anyone else. The whole current craze about looking at health holistically and all the psychological studies on how one’s emotions affect one’s physical health. Now I realized, actually Jesus practised it all.  He not only healed people of their physical ailments, He also healed their emotions. He encouraged and showed them love and acceptance.

So as I take time to recuperate, catch up on God’s word and journaling my journey (no pun intended), I hope to share my little revelations and benefit whoever lands up on this webpage in the world wide web. Meanwhile, I’m also taking time to learn about eating nutritiously and looking for good juicing resources for gastritis, if you know of any, d0 let me know.

Do you have a health and healing story to share too? Don’t be shy to drop a line below.

 

 

I am the Lord that heals you

Exodus 15: 26

 

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Answered Prayers

Romans 8:28
Tonight I shared a very special moment with my Abba Father. As I lay on bed, meditating on His love for me. Out of the blue, I recalled a past prayer request.
A few years ago, a friend asked me to pray for someone who had backslided and stopped going to church. I kept this person in prayers for a period of time. After that, i didn’t really keep track of the matter. Recently, i got to know that this lady whom i was praying for had gone back to church – God had answered my prayers!
 Whenever I pray for someone and God answered my prayers, i would feel an amazing sense of joy and encouragement, knowing for sure that God hears and answers my prayers. This reassurance that though He seems silent, He is working behind the scene, is like water to a panting deer. So certainly He will answer my own prayers. This means there is hope for getting my own breakthrough even when nothing seems to be happening in the natural. This means I should not give up but return to the stronghold and be a prisoner of hope. This is the only way to be truly free, be abandoned to the Hope of God’s working in my life.
 Suddenly i felt overwhelmed by Abba Father’s love. Indeed He works all things out for good for thos who love Him.
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
“Romans 8:28 NKJV
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Divine Appointment

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It was a normal summer Saturday morning.  Ok, perhaps not so normal perhaps, as I had to drag myself out of bed and travel halfway across the other side of town to meet a prospective client.

It was one of those days in which I wished I should have gotten ready faster and left the house earlier.  Which is why I agreed immediately when my dear sister (although we’ve much sibling rivalry at times) happily volunteered to give me a lift as she was heading out.  She dropped me halfway to my client’s place so I could take a bus to my destination.   To cut the story short, I was well on my way, arrived at the bus stop and after a few minutes the bus came.

Upon boarding the bus, I immediately noticed an empty seat beside an old lady at the front.  I smiled to her, she smiled back and I plonked myself down right beside her.  She’s dressed very prettily in a dress, silver white hair elegant combed back.  The wrinkles on her face and arm tells me that she’s probably around the ripe old age of 90 (I think).

Before I realised how rude I was to be staring at her, she started talking to me.  She introduced herself as Florence (First thing I thought of was Florence Nightingale and wondered if she was ever a nurse). And of course I told her my name.  Then we carried on with our mini conversation as below :

Old Lady :  Oh isn’t it a lovely sunny day?

Me: Well, yes it’s indeed a sunny day (hmm..  so much so for weather talk, it sure is sunny but I’m not sure about the lovely part)

Old Lady: Are you in a hurry Macy?

Me:  Yes, in fact, I’m rushing for an appointment.

Old Lady:  I am going to the Church just round the next corner, I thought you might be interested to come with me.  But, well, since you’re in a hurry today, I want you to have this ( speaking which  she reached into her handbag and wanted to pass me a Christian flyer).

Me: (I said smiling),  I’m a believer too.

Old Lady: Oh, really ! Praise the Lord (she’s smiling so widely with a sparkle in her eyes).  You know God is Good. In life there’ll be ups and

downs, sometimes you may find yourself in a muddy pit.  Don’t be discouraged, God will pull you out of the pit.

 

At this point, my spirit immediately felt comforted, yet I was close to tears.

Flashback to the night before, I really don’t feel like coming to this part of town but had no choice as the appointment had been fixed (and afterall, the client always wins).  This was a place with many memories of a past relationship. I remembered even praying to God before bed the night before to grant me strength and peace in my heart.

 

The next thing I knew, the old Lady spoke again

Old Lady: Macy, can we pray for a while?

I nodded my head.

Old Lady: Dear Father, thank you for Macy and I pray that you’ll keep her and bless her. Amen.

 

After the prayer, she said goodbye (still with that sparkle in her eyes) and got down the bus.

And although this old granny is a complete stranger, it was one of the most wonderfully short and sweet prayer I’ve ever had someone said with me.  The morning started out a little grey for me but meeting the old lady just lifted my spirits up.  Though we only spoke for a while, and I don’t even know her, I felt so divine!  Amazingly, I felt God’s presence with me. It’s such a peaceful and comforting feeling that I can’t explain.

Moreover, the old lady is so full of joy and life at her age!!  That spirit and sparkle in her eyes is something that makes me really say ‘Wow’ , almost like being star struck (or even better).  She’s just so inspiring.

I believe she must have been sent by God.  How wonderous ! How marvelous !

Very often, we ask God to speak to us, give us visions, reveal to us in dreams.  But somehow, I think today God chose to speak to me through a lovely old granny.

 

I will always treasure this wonderful memory in my heart.  Perhaps, one day when I’m that old, God will still use me to encourage some younger woman out there feeling down and out and lonely, to remind her that she’s never alone, that her beloved Father in heaven is watching over her with Love.

 

Romans 8:39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Emotional Abuse

 

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When we think about abuse in a relationship, we often think of bruised faces, scars on arms and legs.  What we commonly think of or are more familiar with is physical abuse.  There are many forms of abuse and any form of abuse is cruel.

Unlike physical abuse, emotional (or psychological) abuse is not obvious, it is subtle. Quite often even the victim does not recognize that he/ she is being abused.  Although emotional abuse does not leave black eyes or visible bruises, it is often more seriously damaging to the self-esteem and will of the person being abused.

Physical abuse scars a person’s body but emotional abuse scars a person’s soul.  Often, physical abuse is accompanied or follows emotional abuse.  Emotional battering is used to wear the victim down – often over a long period of time – to cause so much confusion to the person abused so as to undermine his/ her self-concept, to a point that he/ she is willing to take responsibility for the abuser’s actions and behaviour towards him/her or simply just accept it.

Just as there are many forms of physical abuse, there are many varieties of psychological abuse.  They include isolation, crazy-making, verbal abuse, belittling and other humiliating or degrading behaviours.  Though the abusive behaviours may not be easily recognisable by themselves, they are readily identified by recognising the effects they have on the person being abused.

Emotional abuse has the aim of control and dominance. If a person constantly feels as though his/ her feelings, needs, opinions are being devalued, are given no credence, chances are the person is experiencing some form of emotional abuse.

The long term result of emotional and psychological abuse leaves the victim feeling confused, unsure of his/her own judgement and ability to make decisions, sometimes even to the extent of believing that he/ she is going crazy.  Accompanied by these are often low self-esteem, as the victim’s own needs and opinions are often put down, criticised or disregarded.  Depression and even suicidal thoughts set in as the victim feels so trapped in the situation (especially in a close relationship).  Ironically, the victim is often being made blamed for the abuser’s bad behaviours and hence may experience a deep sense of shame and guilt.

Emotional abuse is controlling and wields an invisible prison that keeps the victim in bondage.  In many cases, the victim would have been so manipulated in their thoughts to even recognise that they are being threatened or controlled.  Over extended periods of time, the victim loses all sense of self-direction, self-will, self-confidence and eventually becomes dependent to the abuser and does everything to please/pacify the abuser.  This then perpetuates the vicious cycle of abuse and the abuser gets to keep his dominance over the victim.

Emotional abuse is such a subtle form of control and domination which leaves no visible marks, yet has a profound effect on the emotional and mental well being of the victim.  Victims often feel trapped and so emotionally hurt but cannot point a finger as what is wrong.  Many people have found that once the emotional abuse is no longer effective, physical violence follows.  Many victims suffer in silence – the repressed emotions which left unaddressed often manifest in ill health.

If you or anyone you know is in some form of abuse, please seek help immediately.  Do not make the mistake of thinking that the problem will get better or be resolved with time.  Value yourself and your loved ones enough to stand up for your own right.

The Freedom Programme© in the UK is particularly good at showing up all the myriads of ways in which emotional abuse is used within abusive relationship.  To find out more, check out the Freedom Programme.

 

Turn Forward the Clock

 

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This morning, I woke up to the warm bright morning sun.  I took a look at my clock, which says 6, I knew my clock has stopped.  Yes, time to change the battery, I said to myself.  So I hastened to my drawer, managed to scour for a small AA battery, pluck the clock out from the wall, replaced the battery.  Then I had to wind the clock as it has stopped at 6, and it was then 9 in the morning.

As I wind the clock, I remembered what my mum used to tell me about winding clocks or watches ” You always wind an clocks or watches forward, never backwards as it will ruin the mechanism in the clock works.  I’m  not sure why but I always followed that.

As I wounded my clock forward, a revelation came to me – isn’t life the same too?

Time in life is linear and one directional – that is – always moving forward.  Nonetheless, don’t we like to ‘turn back the clock’ and relive the old times in our minds.  Now don’t get me wrong, reminiscence is good – for fond memories. But what about the bad memories?

We all go through disappointments, hurts, failures, mistakes in life.  We’ve made bad choices, ended up with lacklustre careers, bad company, broken relationships, and many other heart breaks.  While it’s good to retrospect and learn from our mistakes.  Yet, human nature in us, likes to dwell in the past, look back and wonder ‘what if’, ‘what could have been’, ‘what should have been’ and all the likes.

Needless to say, time and tide waits for no man (or woman), time lost is lost, what’s in the past cannot be changed.  So why do we still like to turn back the clock, back to the past?  We can’t turn back the clock, go back in time to change things.

And how can we live our best in the present and towards our future, when we keep looking back, in mourning and regret?

Like any other so-journeyer in this trail called life, I realised I need to move on, keep looking and moving forward.  No amount of looking back can undo yesterday.

As the saying goes, it doesn’t matter where we came from, it matters where we’re going.

The only way ahead is to look forward and live, because the Best is yet to Be, you have not lived your best time yet!